Let's Be Real

         Been awhile since I've been on here. I haven't been feeling like myself lately, I'm in some sort of "funk". I don't know what it is, I mean things have been going rather good in my life. I just feel like BLAH, if that is a feeling than I'm feeling it. I thought moving and starting all over meeting new people would just magically change things and I would become this person that I see myself as in my head. I'm at a point in my life where I dress how I want not really following the "in trend" but still being complimented on my style, just not caring what others think. My motto is if I'm comfortable in it than I"ll wear it. One thing that might sound stupid or silly or whatever, one thing that just breaks my self esteem is my hair, my naturally uncontrollable curly hair. Looking at posters and pictures, magazines they all look so effortlessly pretty or perfect. And guys always seem to go for the girls with the effort free straight hair that they can run their fingers through or the perfect body. I'm in high school and I thought by now I would have my first kiss, or at lest be in a relationship that last longer than a week.
        I know hardly anyone reads this blog, but I'll write on here anyways. Because this is practically the only place I can be totally honest. Sure you may judge me for letting these little things get to me or bother me. But I"m 14 year old girl who is just trying to figure out who I am really, as cliche as that just sounded.
I"m gonna go. I feel a little better now, letting that stuff out.

Your One And Only,
True

If you want I update my tumblr practically everyday so check it out(:
http://herlonelyheartt.tumblr.com/

Why Do I Care?

  So I've been planing on going back to where I moved from for Christmas break to visit some friends and family. But I can't afford it on my own so I asked my dad if he can buy me a roundtrip bus ticket, as my Christmas present. He said yes but he wanted to buy me a plan ticket, but my mom wouldn't let me because of the layover in Denver. I told him and than I didn't hear from him after that. So I called him an hour ago, and asked him about it. And he was kind of mean about it, and telling me I'm a big girl what do I think he should do. I told him my mom was taking a bus down there and that if he would buy me a bus ticket I could ride with her. I didn't want to take his money after talking to him though, but I really need to see my best friends. He also asked me how school was going for me and I told I'm doing really good I even have an A in science, and he acted like he didn't even care. It felt like he only agreed to get me a ticket, so he wouldn't have to talk to me anymore.That hurt me so much. I know this is a lot more deep than my usual posts, but I really needed to vent. And right now this blog is the only place I can do that. I don't know why I want my dad to care so much, when it's obvious I'm a burden to him. I'm looking forward to seeing my friends, but seeing my dad; not so much at the moment.
   On a lighter note I'm super excited to see my friends. I have a total addiction to tumblr now, and DailyBooth. And Christmas is next weekend !
     Leave a comment I love reading them(:

Your One And Only,
True

Nom Nom Nom

         Blahhh you guys I feel soo ugh ! I need to start eating healthier again, I always feel extra good about myself when I take care of myself shocker. It's almost Christmas break 9 left of school not counting the weekends. 
        Since this blog is about me and my teenage antics, here comes my rambling starting in 3 2 1 .
I have had this zit right between my eyebrows for about 2 weeks. And it is driving me crazy -_-. Every where I go in the halls, I see these happy couples. Just another reminder that I'm a single lady. They're so cute holding hands walking around all in love and stuff. I like this guy "T" but he's a friend of my ex "A". Is that bad? Should I just keep me crushin on "T" to myself, since he's a friend of "A"?
       Now that I've babbled my irrelevant girl problems, I will let you go. I now have 2 more followers !! Thanks for reading love you lotss <3

Your One And Only,
True

My Oh My

       Boy do I have some news for you. Remember how yours Truly was asked out by "A" yeahh didn't exactly work out. That date we went on? Went okay but he barely talked at all, and it drove me crazy. Plus I realized he wasn't really my type...at all. So I ended it before it got to serious. So back on the single train. I just need a best guy friend, boyfriends are to much trouble. So attention to all guys out there I True am looking for a Best Guy Friend.
         I'm not exactly sure what to talk about at the moment. I'm running on 5 hours of sleep.  And don't really have the most interesting topics to talk about. My little sister is performing at one the high schools girls half time basketball games, she went to this cheer leading camp thing last weekend, and their showing their routine at the game today.
         Well me and my singleness are going to do what people with no life do on a Saturday. Watch TV shows with cute happy couples in love. Here are some random pictures. okay Bye(:


P.S.
Two websites that I am totally into at the moment is Tumblr typical hipster and Dailybooth.

Your One And Only,
True

       

Never Been Kissed

 Hello Lovelys !

Yes the title is true your eyes are not deceiving you "I True am 14 and have never been kissed". Some people are surprised others say it's sweet and than there are the people that ask the most ridiculous question "Why?" . Why haven't I been kissed? I  never really know how to answer that question. Is it because the opposite sex find my lips repulsive? I sure hope not I try to keep them nice and moisturized(; I'm a hopeless romantic I watch romantic movies and always get so caught up in the characters, even though the movies give me very high expectations for guys I still love watching them. I mean when the moment does come "my first kiss" how am I going to know what to do? What if I'm not a good kisser? What if I go for the kiss but he was reaching for something behind me I watch to many romantic comedies. Lizzie McGuire should have prepared me for this.

         The reason this topic is running through what you would call my brain is because remember A? Well he asked me out yesterday. And we're going to hang out tomorrow. Now that I'm in high school relationships are more than likely not going to be like in middle school. My longest relationship was 2 months and I was in 5th grade. I'm also worried what if it's awkward and we don't talk, that will drive me crazy I hate awkward silences. You know what I'll just be myself and try not to be shy and it will go great and he'll fall for my lovely quirkiness. Maybe if I keep telling myself that I'll actually believe it and it might happen.

Here is a song that explains my dream guy, and some random pictures, Okay bye.(:

Your One And Only,

True

This Is My Title

          True here ! Did you think I left you? I just didn't know what to blog about. But I have an update for you all about parade boy. I think he finally took the hint. I haven't heard from he in two days. But new boy news me and this boy I'll call him "A" because his name starts with an A clever? I know right. We've been texting and he wants to hang out so (: !
           You guys will be proud I True have found myself some friends I no longer avoid eating lunch fearing eating alone. Or having to eat lunch in the bathroom stall like Lindsey Lohan in Mean Girls. So loner no longer I deserve a pat on the back. And I now have 2 followers !!!! That might not sound a lot to you but I was so flippin excited when I saw that .
          I'm rambling now so I'm gonna go before I bore with my boring life. I was a little all over the place today I apologize.
I'm in school right now so I'll post a better post later today, I just wanted to update you all and say thank you for reading my nonsense(:
Here are some random pictures okay bye !

Your One And Only,
True

Oh Boii

                     Remember parade lights boy? Well it hasn't even been a full day since his had my number and his texted me a little over a hundred times. And practically declared his love for and that he wants to be with me forever. WHOA WHOA WHOA I know right. So I guess I could look at this in two ways 
1. I can find this very sweet and maybe he is my Noah from the Notebook. or the more realistic 
2. I should be very happy he doesn't know where I live he might be in the front yard throwing rocks at my window at this very moment.
                      Now before you think I'm being totally harsh and cold hearted. It's just I don't fall for guys very easily at all, so I know that I always have my guard up. But I'm taking family living and we talk about relationship and red flags and well Mr.Parade Boy is waving a huge red flag. I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt and maybe he isn't so clingy , and I will let him know in the nicest way possible that he kind of freaked me out when he said he wanted to be with me forever. That's not to harsh is it? I don't want to be a mean bitch (pardon my not so french) about it.
                     Anyways it's Sunday and sadly Thanksgiving break is over and I must return to this place everyone likes to call school. And guess who decided to come give me an unwanted present? I'll give you a hint her first name is Mother and last name is Nature O_o. To top that all off I have swimming tomorrow so that should go well; I say with dripping sarcasm. 
                    Well I'm off to set things straight with parade boy and take another Tylenol for my unwanted stomach pains. Have a lovely day and don't party to hard(;
OH and I finished season 1 of Gossip Girl.. pathetic right?




Your One And Only,
True